Now is morning 10am.. i cant sleep well last night.. really cant..
thinking about wad happened yesterday, i still couldnt believe it ..
all along im deceiving myself. and long ago im rejected..
months ago my fren did mention about it, but i choose not to believe them as i take it they din even confirm and it was wad they felt.
yesterday afternoon my fren is good enough to told me this
" dont y0u think he is avoiding you? "
at that p0int of time i'm still deceiving myself.
i told him " y0u are not really confirm can u please dun anyhow say ? "
and next he told me the whole conversation about he and 'b' s on bus.
last sunday we went down to watch tournament.
the first thing 'b' ask my friend was something really hurtful..
" why u bring her come down ? whenever i see her i felt uncomfortable "
really dem hurting ah.
on bus i really tried very hard to hold back my tears.
but it failed. why he is the one feeling uncomfortable ?
it should be me okay.
in that group im the only girl.
fine if u all dun talk to me. but at least i got the freedom to do wad i wan ya?
and next in bus 'b' told my fren " when i see her i feel like going h0me lor "
wa best. u think i dun feel like going home too ?
u are really very cruel. REALY CRUEL :'(
i didnt expect you to say such things. it really hurt me alot :'(
yesterday on bus i was alone. nobody beside me.
and tears become my ''face washing water''.
i was numbed yesterday, i think not only yesterday, till now im still numb.
couldnt believe it.
all i told myself was maybe he is juz not the guy for me , its okay , i'm still y0ung , i choose to leave and he will feel more better.
my mummy was right.
a quiet guy may say things unexpectedly .
' its time to come back to reality girl. BE STRONG :))
thinking about wad happened yesterday, i still couldnt believe it ..
all along im deceiving myself. and long ago im rejected..
months ago my fren did mention about it, but i choose not to believe them as i take it they din even confirm and it was wad they felt.
yesterday afternoon my fren is good enough to told me this
" dont y0u think he is avoiding you? "
at that p0int of time i'm still deceiving myself.
i told him " y0u are not really confirm can u please dun anyhow say ? "
and next he told me the whole conversation about he and 'b' s on bus.
last sunday we went down to watch tournament.
the first thing 'b' ask my friend was something really hurtful..
" why u bring her come down ? whenever i see her i felt uncomfortable "
really dem hurting ah.
on bus i really tried very hard to hold back my tears.
but it failed. why he is the one feeling uncomfortable ?
it should be me okay.
in that group im the only girl.
fine if u all dun talk to me. but at least i got the freedom to do wad i wan ya?
and next in bus 'b' told my fren " when i see her i feel like going h0me lor "
wa best. u think i dun feel like going home too ?
u are really very cruel. REALY CRUEL :'(
i didnt expect you to say such things. it really hurt me alot :'(
yesterday on bus i was alone. nobody beside me.
and tears become my ''face washing water''.
i was numbed yesterday, i think not only yesterday, till now im still numb.
couldnt believe it.
all i told myself was maybe he is juz not the guy for me , its okay , i'm still y0ung , i choose to leave and he will feel more better.
my mummy was right.
a quiet guy may say things unexpectedly .
' its time to come back to reality girl. BE STRONG :))
